Goodbye Mumbai !!

My stay at IITB has come to an end. I am now moving to Delhi. Have decided to appear for the UPSC engineering services exam from Delhi. This place has taught me a lot of things. The places do not have emotions they say. It's the bonding created by one's thought process that gives attachment to places. I was hooked to this place in my long stay of 3261 days. I made new friends, i saw joys of success, i have seen the despair of repeated failures. I have seen the demographic change of IIT.

 I was enjoying one of my last chai out there in hostel canteen on the penultimate day of leaving. I saw an auto rickshaw chug along the Hostel gate. A boy got down with his father who came for JEE counseling. He had the shine in his eyes. The dreams to make it. His friend came to receive him and gave a hug, welcomed him and they trotted inside Hostel. I remembered 'myself' who had arrived with a similar shine in his eyes years ago. I might have failed to make full use of iit, but I have learnt something more. It's about the spirit to fight. It has nothing to do with winning or losing or getting job in top MNC. It's about participating. It's about standing tall in failures. It's about keeping the cool in successes. It's about enjoying the journey more than arriving at the destination. It's about life and the proper way of living.

I failed in making it this time. But I succeeded in learning the right lessons. I thank God for failing me. The failure, I believe, is teaching me more than what the success might have taught. These failures brought me very close to my family and helped me in identifying who are real friends. Now I have the courage to pick up the twigs from the shattered dreams and build, step by step, brick by brick, the lost dream. I am doing it right now. One day, I might shine in the glory, or I may go down unnoticed into the oblivion. Nevertheless, I will have one satisfaction. I stood by my dreams and I fought till my last breath in what I believed was right. It's that courage to face the life that I have learnt at IIT Bombay.

May the coming generations of IIT students succeed in their aspirations. With wishes and a heavy heart, I am leaving Mumbai in the afternoon of 4th July 2010. Alone, a loser, with no results to show but like a fighter who looks forward to his next fight.

Thank you to all Friends (Specially to Yahoo, Mayank and Sattu) and Foes !

Following lines r for those 3 special ppl i met here and lost somewhere (Chotu, Vinu, Murgi )

लम्हे  ये  सुनहरे  कल  साथ  हो  ना  हो ,
कल  में  आज  जैसी  बात  हो  ना  हो ,
यादों  के  हसीं  लम्हे  दिल  में  रहेंगे ,
तमाम  उम्र  चाहे  मुलाक़ात  हो  ना  हो ||

Goodbye Mumbai !!

-- Mann

Weeping Heart

कोई दीवाना कहता है, कोई पागल समझता है !
मगर धरती की बेचैनी को बस बादल समझता है !!
मैं तुझसे दूर कैसा हूँ , तू मुझसे दूर कैसी है !
ये तेरा दिल समझता है या मेरा दिल समझता है !!

मोहब्बत एक एहसासों की पावन सी कहानी है !
कभी कबीरा दीवाना था कभी मीरा दीवानी है !!
यहाँ सब लोग कहते हैं, मेरी आंखों में आँसू हैं !
जो तू समझे तो मोती है, जो ना समझे तो पानी है !!

समंदर पीर का है अन्दर, लेकिन रो नही सकता !
यह आँसू प्यार का मोती है, इसको खो नही सकता !!
मेरी चाहत को दुल्हन बना लेना, मगर सुन ले !
जो मेरा हो नही पाया, वो तेरा हो नही सकता !!

भ्रमर कोई कुमुदनी पर मचल बैठा तो हँगामा
हमारे दिल में कोई ख्वाब पला बैठा तो हँगामा,
अभी तक डूब कर सुनते थे हम किस्सा मुहब्बत का
मैं किस्से को हक़ीक़त में बदल बैठा तो हँगामा !!!

Author : Dr. Viswash

The Last Match

Two days from now (19th March, evening ) we have our Last Football match, but don’t know why I m feeling strange about it.

For my unknown readers let me make a platform so that they can board on this blog.

I’m in final year of my college. I’m an active sportsperson from last 5 years. I haven’t played much at my home also in my school days. But I had very good start after that I touched Top level of Sports Here in college. I’ll stay some more time after this year but I have decided to keep myself away from all these events, I’ll focus more on my career and personality development in rest of that extended period.

As such I was a part of many team games but Football was always on top of the list. For Football I have ditched so many things but haven’t ditched any chance to play the game (for exception I ditched it only on few occasion for some special people). It was the second best thing on which I loved to spend time.

The current Football championship is the last sports event of this year, so our next match is going to be my last Match of any sport in the college life (Probably :D).

I’m hoping that I’ll back with a smile on that day from Ground. For that we have to win the match. The current team is not looking strong but I believe that we can win the match if we get some luck. Otherwise like the last game if ball continue to hit on poles only then …. :( .

Anyway let’s hope for the best, I’ll surely miss the Sports of IIT (My College)

Wish me and my team lucks so that we can get our desired result.

Thank you for reading this crap. :)

Love U Miss Anonymous. :-*

The birth of this weird thought was from a dream 2-3 years back. I know I can’t write it in words that’s why I took so long in writing it. And finally today I’m giving it a try. It was time when I was going through hard time, no one around etc etc. That day 1st time I realized the importance of a special someone in life.
Do you ever felt like you love someone who is unknown, unseen to you..?? I do. I wasn’t able to understand that how can I have this much strong feeling of love for a person who doesn’t exist, who is unseen and unknown. Infact one day I thought about everyone known person around me, if somehow I have this feelings for her and I’m not able to recall her face, but no one was near to that imagination in any aspect. So I gave that imagination a name: Miss Anonymous.

I had no one at that place till now in my life. Just had only a single crush in childhood: her name was IMAGINATION (Translation of this word in Hindi)……may be this is one of the possible reasons for existence of thought of miss anonymous. Or may be because of the environment of Mumbai, in which I didn’t find someone perfect for me.
Whatever is the source/ reason for it…….but now it does exist in back of my mind that I love someone. And I believe that I’ll meet her when right time will be on horizon.
Sometime it feels so good that I love her Sooooo much, same time I think why doesn’t she exist in reality and even if she does, where is she..?? Whenever I miss her I generally listen to few songs which I have dedicated for her….like

· पल पल दिल के पास तुम रहती हो…
· अनदेखी अनजानी सी … पगली सी दीवानी सी …
· मेरे ख्वाबों में जो आए, उससे कहो जरा सामने तो आए.
· ख्वाब हो तुम या कोइ हक़ीकत कौन हो तुम बतलाओ.
· its a long list, can't put all songs titles here.

This old feeling grew very fast, specially when I felt that there is no one around me during the rough times.
Bin dekhe hai aisi bechaini tauba, dekha to haye rabba jaane kya hoga… Sapno main aane waali.. neende churane waali, jaane woh kaisi hogi re.
I will love you a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt miss Anonymous.

What I Got ?

Life is the process of finding LOVE, True Friends. every person needs to find four people in their life. First person is yourself, Second is the one you love the most, Third is the one who loves you the most, and the fourth, is the one you intend to spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most in some form, and learn how love feels. Because if you know how love feels, you will be able to find the person who loves you most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved in any form, then you will know what it is you need most. You will then find the right person who is most suitable for you, to be able to keep that relation for lifetime, spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person and most of us don’t even meet them in our whole life. The one you love most doesn't love you. The one who love you most is always not the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He/she is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time. Which person are you in other people’s life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart. At least I can say about myself that at any point in time when I love you, I really love you. But when I don’t love you anymore, I really don’t love you anymore. When I love you, I can pretend that i don't. Same goes, when I loves you no more, there's no way I can pretend I loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you. You must ask yourself if you still love him, If you also don't love him anymore, don't ever not let him leave just to save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the people who love him most, not stop him from having it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don’t love him, And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart? Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can well take it down and put it in your basin. But do remember that the moonlight will still shine upon you.

In other words, when you love a person. you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life. If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for all his good points and not the bad ones, b’coz everyone has some gray patches with golden side. You can wish and tell him to become, what you like because you love him but don not force him. When you really love a person, you cannot find reason why you love him. You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will always wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without telling that what they need. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, more or less but every relation need time at right moments, as we can’t leave a plant without watering, same is the case with relationships, if you leave them dry either we find that there’s no more greenery, or if somehow the relationship plant survives then you will end up in a cactus rather than rose. Not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.You might get angry and upset but Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises. If someone somehow already said you that he will be there for you till the sky falls, till the oceans dry, my love for you will never change! We all know that the sky will never fall, the ocean will never dry. Even if it may happen that same person have a change of heart, you should not take someone granted for at all times.

Be careful when making relations. Don’t make relations that you cannot keep. It is thousand times better to judge a person before loving or getting involved rather then loving first then judging. Now you will say that true love isn’t a program that we executes, it simply happens. I know that but what all I meant is that be slow in falling in a relation, in starting you can judge and leave if you wish, but after giving someone a very special place in heart it’s not easy to leave them, and if we leave then we will hurt our self badly and in future you will avoid getting close to anyone. In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another; the one saying can't be believe, until unless he himself don’t see it happening.

My point of view............
It really is hard to love someone who doesn't love you. For me, it is pointless loving someone who doesn't love you back because in the long run it will not work out you are just going in circles. you can ignore this fact for a while but you can’t keep that thought away for very long time, it will come and hit you again that other person doesn’t love you, and finally it will break your feeling of affection for the other person. each relation is based on it's unspoken agreement of getting same in return. and we don't realize it until you both keeps each others expectations. Every relation is like a two wheeler, if any of two tyres gets punctured you won’t be able to go much farther, so better to treat it at the right time and prevent it from bursting, if you can’t then just abandon it.

I agree that ups and downs occur in all relationships but contrary to what most people say “accept the life as it comes” --I do not feel so. I believe in giving THE BEST if I really love someone, b’coz I don’t want to regret later sometime in future that “Kaash maine kisi ko samjhne ki/ Manane ki thodi aur koshish ki hoti, ya kaash aisa kiya hota to aaj hamara relation kitna accha hota , I dont want to miss the person i love, I want to be in same bond of affection for lifetime ” Why to regret when we can do that right now. Let me tell you these phases are like illness if you don’t treat it at the right time, you will end up gaining nothing from the other end. Don’t leave it on tomorrow…..as someone very well said that if the speed set by you is very slow when you click on sunset, what you will find in the processing of the picture will be picture of dark. Everything has it's expire date and same with feelings, recolour those feelings before letting fade.

People who think that this affection/love is only about giving, not about thinking that what we are getting in return, My simple question to those fellows is that CAN YOU LOVE SOMEONE IF YOU FEEL THAT THERE IS NOTHING FOR YOU AT THE OTHER END …?? And even if you do that then one more question…HOW LONG…?? Thought for a while :-w , My friends if you think that you can go with the same for lifetime then do mark my words…you will break at SOME POINT. It’s different that you can cover long distance then me. But you will break as we aren’t a robot. In fact robots do fail: D.

by the way, Jinko apana maano ukno kabhi parakhna mat, Parakhne se koi apana nahi rahta.

I can beer a finite level of disappointment but I shouldn't loose the infinite hope of meeting last 2 types of people.

PS: don’t relate above with someone. These are just my personal opinions.

TO BE CONTINUED………………………

Did you hear this..?

If a blogger, blogs how do we know if there is someone out there reading if you don't post your comments.... :D

We blog for our sanity, therapy and to get feedback and help from our friends, loved ones and anyone in an "ear-shot", but how do we get people to respond....I have plenty to talk about and want to say as I am not able to find out a right person with whom I can share all. I think the kindness - no I am counting the kindness of you kind should to get me through the dark times, and the fun times.

Had a rough couple years with my dear friend, and life happening all around me while I stood there being numb, or trying to be, but it was really a hard time to get through...and heck sometime I feel I’m still getting through it. How can we get through a time like that? I mean I got through it, but am more than still visibly shaken.

The future is wide open and I hope good time is just waiting for me. And I am waiting to, for you my blog viewers. Let's play catch up...and talk and get to know one another. Share the good the bad and the ugly, so that we can help each other.

Throws out a topic for conversation and let’s see where we end up.

' Three - Words’

Disclaimer : It’s not written by me, I just made few changes according to my Opinion. Found it very interesting, that’s why I included it here.

The following three-word phrases can enrich every relationship. These are just three little BUT VERY POWERFUL words!!!


I Love You
Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs. The need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted. Your spouse, your Sister, your children, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words "I love you". If one loves you then he also wants to be loved in return. Nobody knows what they have until they lose it so If you have this feeling for someone in nay form then do tell him today, don't wait for a specific time, we never know if something could go wrong with that person, and you might not get chance to say this to him. Also don't assume with everyone that your feelings are well understood by him without saying by yourself. You don't know whether he is waiting to listen it from you.**

**Don't say it if you don't mean it by heart as the impact will be same in negative side if he/she find out/feel that there isn't true feeling behind this and it was only just few artificial cheesy words.

I'll Be There
If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night, to take you to hospital from hostel, or when you are in need of help, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase " I'll be there/ I'm coming" Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we're truly present for other people, important things happen to them & us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility.

I Miss You
Perhaps more marriages could be saved if couples simply & sincerely say to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired & loved. Consider how happy you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."

I Respect You / I Trust You
Respect and trust is another way of showing love. Its conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal. If you talk to your children as if they were adults you will strengthen the bonds & become close friends. This applies to all interpersonal relationships.

Please Forgive Me
Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday. and if you are the one then don't force other to say this.

I Thank You
Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don’t take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.

Count On Me
A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating "you can count on me". You won't need to ask for his help coz he will there for you without asking whenever he feels that you need someone.

Let Me Help
The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help. Don't take it as they you are giving them pain, Give them chance to show their affection in this form.

I Understand You
People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for healing relationship. This applies to any relationship.

My Upcoming blog Titles.

Love You Miss Anonymous. :-*
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What I got..?.....
Mechanical Heart: A fall of 3 Point something (will write it after 5-6 years)