The Last Match

Two days from now (19th March, evening ) we have our Last Football match, but don’t know why I m feeling strange about it.

For my unknown readers let me make a platform so that they can board on this blog.

I’m in final year of my college. I’m an active sportsperson from last 5 years. I haven’t played much at my home also in my school days. But I had very good start after that I touched Top level of Sports Here in college. I’ll stay some more time after this year but I have decided to keep myself away from all these events, I’ll focus more on my career and personality development in rest of that extended period.

As such I was a part of many team games but Football was always on top of the list. For Football I have ditched so many things but haven’t ditched any chance to play the game (for exception I ditched it only on few occasion for some special people). It was the second best thing on which I loved to spend time.

The current Football championship is the last sports event of this year, so our next match is going to be my last Match of any sport in the college life (Probably :D).

I’m hoping that I’ll back with a smile on that day from Ground. For that we have to win the match. The current team is not looking strong but I believe that we can win the match if we get some luck. Otherwise like the last game if ball continue to hit on poles only then …. :( .

Anyway let’s hope for the best, I’ll surely miss the Sports of IIT (My College)

Wish me and my team lucks so that we can get our desired result.

Thank you for reading this crap. :)

Love U Miss Anonymous. :-*

The birth of this weird thought was from a dream 2-3 years back. I know I can’t write it in words that’s why I took so long in writing it. And finally today I’m giving it a try. It was time when I was going through hard time, no one around etc etc. That day 1st time I realized the importance of a special someone in life.
Do you ever felt like you love someone who is unknown, unseen to you..?? I do. I wasn’t able to understand that how can I have this much strong feeling of love for a person who doesn’t exist, who is unseen and unknown. Infact one day I thought about everyone known person around me, if somehow I have this feelings for her and I’m not able to recall her face, but no one was near to that imagination in any aspect. So I gave that imagination a name: Miss Anonymous.

I had no one at that place till now in my life. Just had only a single crush in childhood: her name was IMAGINATION (Translation of this word in Hindi)……may be this is one of the possible reasons for existence of thought of miss anonymous. Or may be because of the environment of Mumbai, in which I didn’t find someone perfect for me.
Whatever is the source/ reason for it…….but now it does exist in back of my mind that I love someone. And I believe that I’ll meet her when right time will be on horizon.
Sometime it feels so good that I love her Sooooo much, same time I think why doesn’t she exist in reality and even if she does, where is she..?? Whenever I miss her I generally listen to few songs which I have dedicated for her….like

· पल पल दिल के पास तुम रहती हो…
· अनदेखी अनजानी सी … पगली सी दीवानी सी …
· मेरे ख्वाबों में जो आए, उससे कहो जरा सामने तो आए.
· ख्वाब हो तुम या कोइ हक़ीकत कौन हो तुम बतलाओ.
· its a long list, can't put all songs titles here.

This old feeling grew very fast, specially when I felt that there is no one around me during the rough times.
Bin dekhe hai aisi bechaini tauba, dekha to haye rabba jaane kya hoga… Sapno main aane waali.. neende churane waali, jaane woh kaisi hogi re.
I will love you a lotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt miss Anonymous.

What I Got ?

Life is the process of finding LOVE, True Friends. every person needs to find four people in their life. First person is yourself, Second is the one you love the most, Third is the one who loves you the most, and the fourth, is the one you intend to spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most in some form, and learn how love feels. Because if you know how love feels, you will be able to find the person who loves you most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved in any form, then you will know what it is you need most. You will then find the right person who is most suitable for you, to be able to keep that relation for lifetime, spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person and most of us don’t even meet them in our whole life. The one you love most doesn't love you. The one who love you most is always not the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with is never the one you love most or the one who love you most. He/she is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time. Which person are you in other people’s life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart. At least I can say about myself that at any point in time when I love you, I really love you. But when I don’t love you anymore, I really don’t love you anymore. When I love you, I can pretend that i don't. Same goes, when I loves you no more, there's no way I can pretend I loves you.

When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you. You must ask yourself if you still love him, If you also don't love him anymore, don't ever not let him leave just to save your pride. If you still love him, you should wish him happiness, and hope that he will be with the people who love him most, not stop him from having it. If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves, it shows you already don’t love him, And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart? Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can well take it down and put it in your basin. But do remember that the moonlight will still shine upon you.

In other words, when you love a person. you can use another method of possessing the person. Let him become a permanent memory in your life. If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is. Love him for all his good points and not the bad ones, b’coz everyone has some gray patches with golden side. You can wish and tell him to become, what you like because you love him but don not force him. When you really love a person, you cannot find reason why you love him. You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will always wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without telling that what they need. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, more or less but every relation need time at right moments, as we can’t leave a plant without watering, same is the case with relationships, if you leave them dry either we find that there’s no more greenery, or if somehow the relationship plant survives then you will end up in a cactus rather than rose. Not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.You might get angry and upset but Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love they love to ask each other to swear, to make promises. If someone somehow already said you that he will be there for you till the sky falls, till the oceans dry, my love for you will never change! We all know that the sky will never fall, the ocean will never dry. Even if it may happen that same person have a change of heart, you should not take someone granted for at all times.

Be careful when making relations. Don’t make relations that you cannot keep. It is thousand times better to judge a person before loving or getting involved rather then loving first then judging. Now you will say that true love isn’t a program that we executes, it simply happens. I know that but what all I meant is that be slow in falling in a relation, in starting you can judge and leave if you wish, but after giving someone a very special place in heart it’s not easy to leave them, and if we leave then we will hurt our self badly and in future you will avoid getting close to anyone. In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another; the one saying can't be believe, until unless he himself don’t see it happening.

My point of view............
It really is hard to love someone who doesn't love you. For me, it is pointless loving someone who doesn't love you back because in the long run it will not work out you are just going in circles. you can ignore this fact for a while but you can’t keep that thought away for very long time, it will come and hit you again that other person doesn’t love you, and finally it will break your feeling of affection for the other person. each relation is based on it's unspoken agreement of getting same in return. and we don't realize it until you both keeps each others expectations. Every relation is like a two wheeler, if any of two tyres gets punctured you won’t be able to go much farther, so better to treat it at the right time and prevent it from bursting, if you can’t then just abandon it.

I agree that ups and downs occur in all relationships but contrary to what most people say “accept the life as it comes” --I do not feel so. I believe in giving THE BEST if I really love someone, b’coz I don’t want to regret later sometime in future that “Kaash maine kisi ko samjhne ki/ Manane ki thodi aur koshish ki hoti, ya kaash aisa kiya hota to aaj hamara relation kitna accha hota , I dont want to miss the person i love, I want to be in same bond of affection for lifetime ” Why to regret when we can do that right now. Let me tell you these phases are like illness if you don’t treat it at the right time, you will end up gaining nothing from the other end. Don’t leave it on tomorrow…..as someone very well said that if the speed set by you is very slow when you click on sunset, what you will find in the processing of the picture will be picture of dark. Everything has it's expire date and same with feelings, recolour those feelings before letting fade.

People who think that this affection/love is only about giving, not about thinking that what we are getting in return, My simple question to those fellows is that CAN YOU LOVE SOMEONE IF YOU FEEL THAT THERE IS NOTHING FOR YOU AT THE OTHER END …?? And even if you do that then one more question…HOW LONG…?? Thought for a while :-w , My friends if you think that you can go with the same for lifetime then do mark my words…you will break at SOME POINT. It’s different that you can cover long distance then me. But you will break as we aren’t a robot. In fact robots do fail: D.

by the way, Jinko apana maano ukno kabhi parakhna mat, Parakhne se koi apana nahi rahta.

I can beer a finite level of disappointment but I shouldn't loose the infinite hope of meeting last 2 types of people.

PS: don’t relate above with someone. These are just my personal opinions.

TO BE CONTINUED………………………

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We blog for our sanity, therapy and to get feedback and help from our friends, loved ones and anyone in an "ear-shot", but how do we get people to respond....I have plenty to talk about and want to say as I am not able to find out a right person with whom I can share all. I think the kindness - no I am counting the kindness of you kind should to get me through the dark times, and the fun times.

Had a rough couple years with my dear friend, and life happening all around me while I stood there being numb, or trying to be, but it was really a hard time to get through...and heck sometime I feel I’m still getting through it. How can we get through a time like that? I mean I got through it, but am more than still visibly shaken.

The future is wide open and I hope good time is just waiting for me. And I am waiting to, for you my blog viewers. Let's play catch up...and talk and get to know one another. Share the good the bad and the ugly, so that we can help each other.

Throws out a topic for conversation and let’s see where we end up.